you came back, but not for me;

you say my name like its bitter, or like its some forbidden fruit. it must not be named. you choke on your words like theyre hard to swallow. you look me in the eyes, yours black as night. feasting on my looks, on my fear, on my pain. i know why you did this, i know what you gained. you did it to show me how much stronger you were. you did it to make yourself feel better. well does it make you feel bigger to make me feel small? i hope it does. and i hope when your in bed, tossing and turning, this haunts you. the look on my face, i hope it haunts you. cause my tears fall fast, as does my heart, but it is merely your fault i am in parts. i could never forget the way you looked the day you left. shocked, almost, and i knew you'd be back. you swore you'd be back. well where are you now? now that im alone. im hurt. im depressed. well where are you now?