when times were a little easier;

i wish i was a time traveler. not like other time zones, no other eras, just back into memories that i can't get out of my head. i like being the type of girl you want to remember and can never forget, but i wish i was the type of girl that could forget. every one of you that has ever changed me, for better or worse, every one who has loved me, hated me, broke me. you all are in my head constantly. and my thoughts are so loud i cant concentrate on anything else. every one of you haunts me. i wish i could go back when i could still get up the nerve to talk to you, and tell you to shutup. tell you to leave me alone, go drown myself in liquor so i dont remember your face, and then years from that moment, i wont be sitting here thinking "what if things had been different?"